Just Saying

Ever noticed that some people can easily fool you while others can't get anything past you?I have experienced this so much that it's scary.My ex continually fooled me about what was going on in our lives,while my daughter can't get by with anything. It's like I can actually hear her thoughts most of the time. Pity it wasn't the other way around.I've always been interested in this and would really like to study it a little deeper.I really enjoy studying spiritualism and how we are all connected.But for now I'm just trying to get my own life straightened out. It's been hard trying to get over the past 29 years of my life. I just can't seem to figure out what I did that would make him cheat on me and be so mean at times. I know that I'm not really the problem. I realize that he is the one with the mental problems and I tried so hard to help him in all areas of our lives but it seems like he rejected everything I had to offer.So,now I have to get over all this and move on yet the hurt and anger I feel towards him is a daily battle.If anyone who reads this blog has any suggestions on how to trust again and "let go" please feel free to say so.I just think that when you are married to someone,they are the only one you are supposed to have any kind of sexual relationship with and you are supposed to make them your top priority,well just under God,but you know what I mean.I think God should be number one but your spouse should be next in line.After all they are the one you are supposed to spend the rest of your life with,right?Isn't that what the marriage vows are all about?Well, that's my opinion anyway,ain't preaching,just saying.